Unhappy

Dear Lord,

I am not feeling well now. I must admit that I am unhappy already. I don't enjoy my work life anymore the way I used to. I am not happy anymore. Really, I am not.

I must admit that I am not enjoying the company of my colleagues anymore. It is like I don 't like the people around me anymore. I know this is wrong but I can''t help it. Maybe, it is also because I am not growing there anymore.

I feel like a star losing its shine until it goes into oblivion. I feel that way and I am just so sorry about it.

I must admit I am not noticed anymore. It seems like all my efforts have been futile. Life is not what it used to be anymore. I am not enjoying it Lord. I get irritated with those people around me already.

What do I do? Do I just grow there to become indifferent? Good thing I still have Ynnah there but we don't get to spend time together the way we used to. I guess, Lord it is really time for me to leave.

Five years are five years. Yet, there will always come a time that I have to choose another path where You will guide me. Lord, is it really Your will for me to go to public school? Father, I don't want to stay there another year anymore. Please give me the chance to go to public school next year. I want to experience a bigger world.

I will never be sure about the people I will be working with soon but may they become good to me and be patient with me. May I develop good and lasting friendship there and may I grow there to become a better individual. I will choose to do good and to do my best now to leave a fine memory there. I have loved SSI somehow, it has become a significant part of my life as a teacher and as a person but then there's always time to simply go and move on.

Lord, just help me bear with the remaining months. I still have a long way. Eight months more. Just help me. Thank You, Father God. Amen.

July 20, 2013

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all He has done. Phil. 4:6 NLT

Dear Lord,

I am having some thought now. Forgive me if I had been so embittered and had been encouraging some people to follow my plans. I feel so tired and jaded in my workplace I really want to go out now.

I know what I had been doing is wrong, please forgive me. Yet Lord, You know what I am going through right now, the things that are happening and sadly they become worse to worst as days pass by.

I am not sure. Maybe I am just so used to the things that I used to do that's why I feel this way.

Father, I believe that I can still choose to be happy despite the situation. It is just that people and things can be so utterly disheartening at times. I am sad. Really sad.

Father, I still hold on to the promises that You have for us. I know You have Your plans and Your purpose. Help me see them. Help me to have a revived and refreshed spirit again.

I am praying Lord if it is Your will to transfer to public school, then so be it. Anyway, maybe Lord it is already time for me to move on and grow in a different way. I need to move on and face another chapter of my life.

I still have days to come. Sustain me Lord. Sustain me Father. I pray to You. I pray to You. Grant me peace Lord God. Thank You very much Lord. Amen.

BEE